Wednesday, April 23, 2008

my life is not my own...


Today started out simply enough. Breakfast. A planned walk. My oldest daughter was home so she planned to walk with me. After the walk a trip to CostCo to pick up her contact lenses. Simple. Easy. And then the rest of the day for me to do what needed and what I wanted to get done. Along with writing this blog now...I'm writing a novel (isn't everyone?) and I was hoping to get some time to do that today. I said yesterday that I'm having my porch repaired and redecked and I haven't been on my own at home for three weeks now. Don't get me wrong. The man repairing my porch is a very nice man and he does fine work...but I'm not alone. I just don't feel like I can just go sit and write my novel when he may need to use the facilities or ask a question or just talk for a while. So, needless to say, the novel has suffered. I mean, I've been writing it for six years so what's three weeks. But it's starting to bother me. Believe it or not, when I write, my blood glucose number goes down. I told you, stress. I dream that someday I'll finish that novel and then I'll find someone who wants to publish it and then lots of people will want to read it and I'll make enough money for that little brown cedar shuttered house in Cape May. I don't need a big house. Little is fine. Perfect in fact.


So my daughter and I are starting out and I'm speaking with the contractor when the phone rings. A good friend who lives in Florida. Her dog (Nellie....17 years old) died last night. Very, very sad. MK we're thinking of you. Then we talk some more to the contractor. Finally get in the car to ride to the mall to walk. Funny, isn't it? Ride to walk. Anyway. Then we go to CostCo and buy all kinds of goodies....strawberries, grapes, oranges (which I share with the contractor), avocados, my favorite bibb lettuce, and I succumb and buy a rotisserie chicken...two actually. And I see dinner coming together. I can write this afternoon, I think, because dinner is essentially ready. Some vegetable soup (which I made and froze...no canned soups for us...have you ever tried to find a soup that does NOT have HIGH FRUCTOSE CORN SYRUP!?), chicken, and a large salad. Cheese (delicious hard cheddar from my special cheese ladies!) and grapes. Perfect! But, while dinner was perfect...my afternoon was not. At least not for writing my novel.


First I had to put everything away and then I had to make two salads. My daughter wanted one too. And then there were questions and opinions and laundry and just standing outside and looking at all the beautiful trees in bloom. There is a pink Dogwood down the street that is breathtaking! The next thing I knew it was time to pick those chickens (I hate to pick a chicken!!!), reheat the soup, and toss the salad. Tomorrow is another day, at least that's what I've heard. So tomorrow I'm going to walk the mall and come home and write my novel! (And maybe do some laundry...and I'll have to figure out what I'm cooking for dinner, and I have to go to the post office. But I hope I won't have to call the newspapers again. We've been having a delivery problem for three weeks! We never know if the paper will be in the driveway or not. The other morning I spent a good hour on hold and talking with the home delivery representative from each newspaper we get and they assure me the problem would be fixed. What good is a newspaper that arrives after breakfast? Exactly!) So tomorrow. After my walk. I'm writing my novel. Yes, P. I am!!!


So today's salad was a good one. We had tuna salad, bibb lettuce, romaine lettuce, cucumber, fresh mozzarella cubes (I had tomatoes and mushrooms...daughter doesn't like them!) and our favorite...AVOCADO!!! Of course our whole grain crackers. Grapes for dessert. You'll notice there is no book or crossword puzzle. You'll also notice TWO plates. I had company for lunch. My daughter. Why would I read a book when I can talk with her? Exactly.

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